Who’s That Girl? Wait It’s Me Hello, I’m The Problem.
“Who’s that girl?? La, La, La que Eve- Wait it’s me hello I’m the problem.”
Have you ever struggled with imposter syndrome?
I never really thought I did because, of course, I know who I am, it’s me! Oh yes, Hello, it’s me, I’m the problem que Taylor.
Ok, enough of the music quotes. Let’s get into this week’s awareness.
I struggle with imposter syndrome.
It’s actually part of the biggest breakthrough I had in 2022 when I realized I was waiting for someone to tell me what to do, and it’s because I felt like an imposter running a multimillion-dollar company.
Remembering where I came from and thinking how I am NOT qualified to be here.
It’s actually an internal subconscious dialogue I have with myself because, on one hand, I know how skilled I am and how hard I have worked to get to where I am.
I have many superpowers like learning and discipline, I am relentless, I always find a way, and I can do hard things most people can’t or won’t do.
Then the thoughts slowly creep in like, well, you aren’t really that skilled, remember that time you failed or you really screwed up here.
Remember that one time you actually didn’t do the hard thing and you skipped the one workout, etc…
On Wednesday I had my big tech women’s executive golf clinic event and I officially realized I struggle with imposter syndrome.
I was sponsoring this big women’s event on International Women’s Day, and I was moderating the panel discussing driving change.
I had this thought pop into my head “who am I to be hosting this panel with women way more senior than me who are at the C level of Fortune 100 and 500 companies?”
But then this other thought came to me, of course, I should be doing this. I have worked so hard to get to this table.
Well, I have to say I nailed it out of the park! I freaking CRUSHED it! Yes, I am tooting my own horn, but I want to share with you what is possible.
Remember in my last email I spoke about how I would self-sabotage and get a headache or a cold?
Well, It’s the calmest I have been before a public speaking event yet.
The panelists were phenomenal, and the conversation was dynamic.
I also thoroughly enjoyed public speaking for the first time, and time flew by!
The event video recap coming soon..
On the way to the event, I listened to, of course, the Ed Mylett podcast, and he had Lewis Howes on his show.
I haven’t really listened to Lewis before, but the title struck me “How to unlock your greatness”.
In the podcast, they talk about how people are typically scared of 3 things: fear of failure and fear of success, and neither of those things were big fears for them or myself.
The third fear was the fear that I am not enough. And I was like YES, that is me.
I think we all have this deep-down question in our soul, wondering if we are enough. Enough to be loved, to have the job, be the wife, be the mom, the athlete, etc…
I talked last week about how I became aware that I was self-sabotaging.
I didn’t realize that part of this was coming from imposter syndrome. I’ve just started really researching imposter syndrome so I can learn more about what is going on, and it actually turns out it is very common for high achievers!
We start to doubt our skills, talents, and accomplishments, thinking eventually someone will figure out who we really are and it’s not this successful person you all think!
I had been self-sabotaging because I felt I was not enough. I didn’t think I was enough to be doing public speaking, to be helping and encouraging other women to break barriers, but then I realized as I break barriers, I help others break barriers.
One of the most significant realizations for me over the past year is that being present is all we really have.
With so much uncertainty and change happening around us, it’s easy to get caught up in the past or worry about the future.
However, focusing on the present moment and being mindful of what we have can bring more peace and happiness into our lives.
I don’t just talk about doing hard things, I actually do them.
Public speaking is the next hard thing I am doing and breaking down this barrier for myself. It’s not something I thought I could do or even wanted to do.
When we do things we don’t even want to do, but we know we need to do them, that is where real growth happens.
From outside of our comfort zone and from outside of the comfort of our own self-limitations by pushing past to new levels.
When we get to new levels, we get to new fulfillment, and fulfillment from growth is like nothing else.
You can achieve, but if you didn’t grow and didn’t realize your growth in that process, and you just got the things, it’s not the same.
There is no satisfaction in the world like growth because it’s ultimately one of our higher purposes as human beings is to evolve.
As we grow, we are raising the vibration of the earth, we are getting out of the lower emotions of self-doubt, self-limitations, and insecurity, and we are moving to self-worth, confidence, and love, which ultimately raises the frequency of the world, which is our higher purpose, which is why we came here and what we were meant to do.
Until the next awareness let’s break limits and change lives!
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